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So, I was in a deep thought when I had the urge to take my last piercing out. I’m officially piercing free. Over the years I’ve gotten several things pierced like: 

• tongue
• ears
• chest (dermal)
• nipple

And all but my ears I’ve decided to close. No one tells you how annoying each one of the piercing are after all the excite about getting them are gone. After having your tongue pierced for a year- its get somewhat boring- unless you’re just a down right FREAK! And all the other ones are for less active persons, I’ve very active - meaning working out, rough housing with siblings, etc so likes my dermal was a mere interference. Almost all piercing look like but trust they all get annoying after some time, trust. 

But, we all live and learn! :) 

As of lately  I haven’t been taking it one day at a time. Normally, my mental clock is ticking aloud reminding me I need to make moves. I was thinking to myself how can I make 2012 better than 2011? Considering what I accomplished last year I have some big shoes to fill. But, as of lately i’ve been sitting back and analyzing my experiences and just rolling with the punches. 

Basketball- network is such an amazing thing. The more I seem to network the smaller and smaller this area seems to get. 

Work- For once I can say I love my job. I get to work from home…that right there is music to my ears every time I talk about it. The flexibility that I have working here is unbelievable now I can work on pursuing my own ideas. 

Family- just peachy. Nothing really worth mentioning. Same ole same….

The boo- Things are swell! I feel loved, i’m happy and secure, and that’s all i’m dishing out! ;p

Although a vacation is needed I don’t think I will be able to take one. One of mentors told me “the ones that want it the most - don’t take days off” She wasn’t saying this to me directly but I felt like she was speaking to me. So, I will postpone my vacation and push thru what I consider this stress point in my career. Its not really that overwhelming I just need to slow down and do one thing at a time. 
I’ve been beating myself up about several things and the other day I just had to let it all out and come back to earth. Its going to come to me…there’s no rush. I’m very content with my life so if what I want doesn’t come I’m good. However, I would love for my dream to become reality, so there is no reason to burn myself out- nothing will get accomplished like that. 

The holiday season is for giving! Why wait until the holiday season…every year during this time my job passes around fundraising flyers with hopes people empty their pockets as if they don’t have families and things to take care of. 

If it were I- I would start fund raising for the upcoming Christmas in Jan…That’s when everyone pretty much recovers from Christmas shopping. Idk, I don’t like when people/companies make it seem like monetary donations are the only way you can help someone out. Or when they have coat drives and they want you to go out and buy new coats- dude whats wrong with the coats that are in my closet? 

I think time is  more valuable than money…I feel like I contribute my portion to society by coaching and mentoring the little girls I see on the daily. You not going to sit here and tell me that’s not good enough. No wonder why the younger generation equate money with happiness. Smh….

you gonna learn today! - yeah, that was random but I felt like typing it! 

My job decided to block tumblr but not twitter or facebook …this cant be life.

On a lighter note, I’ve been thinking of Christmas. ie Should I stay here or go to london. hm. And also what should i get everyone?! better start looking now or get stuck with the crowd late christmas shopping.

I am slowly dying on the inside. My ambition is scratching to get out, just to get a fresh breath of air.

Daydreaming isn’t enough anymore. Before I could daydream & still retain my sanity. But, now the boredom is starting to mess with my head. My ambition wants to cease the opportunity but my reality is guarding the door accompanied by Mr. mortgage, Mr. car note, Grandma Loans and sister responsibilities…

My 9 to 5 is nothing more than a reason to get out of bed in the morning. 201_ is when I break free. No regrets, no looking back…But for now, I shall plan accordingly and get all my ducks in a row.

“Every day, in every way, I am getting better and better!”

(Source: theatricalbliss)

theatricalbliss:

Excuse me.

Am I supposed to be some bad chick who go out throwing up gang signs… stealing and robbing stores, randomly punching people in the face… humping everything that walks… ????!!!!

What in the world?? Is it bad to have a job, education, goals, dreams and expectations and have some dignity?! Can I a girl just be an old-fashioned GOOD girl.. granted I have my issues..but seriously??!!

End random fun rant…

I …think I like actually being single.

It’s funny seeing myself look at relationships in a different light. A couple hundred posts back I was poking my lip out because I wanted to cuddle and just to be held, but now…PHA!!!! F THAT! (lol)

Don’t get me wrong- I still have the dream of having a husband, kids, another house, a family…However, if it doesn’t come I’ll be content. I rather live alone than to settle. I digress.

When thinking about a relationship I frown up my face like “huh? a what?”  I’m just really content with the single like right now. The little things like cuddling or being held just isn’t a priority anymore…I shared my bed the other day and got so annoyed because I couldn’t stretch out. smh…its was a sad sight to see. I’m use to being all over the bed, now i’m forced to lie only on this section of the bed? WHOMP! this my bed…I want all of it. I guess I got my  selfish bone back.

I think in ones instead of two’s …Which means more stuff for me! & when the entertainment catches a tude, I just close the text message or end the call shrug it off and keep it moving.

Single life for the win! (for now…ya’ll know i’m bipolar)

I think its time for a social network cleanse. I realize that every down moment I get I have to consume it with checking a social network. Why can’t I just enjoy the silence or time of doing nothing?

Twitter will be deleted. Facebook will be cut- its coming off my phone. Tumblr- well, i’ll only be on a work (lol)…I believe that’s its. Everything else I’m on will be deleted or significantly cut back.

Its about who I am becoming than where I am arriving…

I’m aware of this, HOWEVER would someone please notify the patience department.

theatricalbliss:

 God lead the way.