Don’t you hate when your mind is full of …stuff. You can’t really focus on just one thought. Yet you end up zoning out of the zone you were already in.
I dislike venting on tumblr or any social media…so don’t worry this is not a vent post. Its more so a reflection post.
Reflecting on the many thoughts that seems have me siting and staring at the walls. There are so many feelings that I feel yet can’t seem to articulate right now, so staring out into space is the result.
But this is not a vent post.
The uncertainties of life ….make me paranoid, anxious, second guessing myself and unsure of the things I’m confident about.
But did I mention this is not a vent post.
Sometimes you just want to be reassured that you and everything will be okay.
I find it interesting how those in relationship yearn to be single and those who are single yearn for relationships.
I simply blame peoples insecurities for remaining in a situation where they are not happy. And I applaud those who are still single because they refuse to settle.
I prefer being in a relationship. I love having the stability of one person, that security, that consistent affection. Being able to build and grow with someone you connect with is what I find the most rewarding.
However, relationships are a lot of work. Working to combine two different worlds into one. Relationships have their share of pros and cons. But, being single isn’t THAT much easier. Well, not for me anyway…being single is somewhat annoying.
First of all, dealing with multiple personalities (depending on how many guys you’re talking to) will drive you loco. You end up paying more attention to many exhausting more energy than you do with just one. You always end up running into a guy that is an attention freak and wants to consume all you’re time. Then theres the one that complains about how you don’t hit him up unless he hits you…blah. Then there the one that texts you all day but yall don’t manage to talk about anything. THENNNN you have the one that want to take you out every three days, but you’re really not feeling him. smdh. And don’t forget about the one that only talks about sex or how good he is at eating pussy. All this…just to end up still looking. Being single and looking is so overrated.
So, my solution is stop looking..LOL. Yeah, easier said then done. We all claim we’re not looking but as soon as someone attractive walks in the room our status instantly changes… Or another option is to channel ones focus elsewhere…pha.
I’ve said all this to say…where are all the good men at? GOSH!
So, a good friend of mine just had a baby….
But, I found out from Instagram. Am I wrong for being disappointed he didn’t tell me?! Is that being selfish?
Hear me out…We have been friends since the 6th grade. Not to mention we were actually in a relationship for about a year and a half; broke up and since then remained friend…and today we actually talk about 3/4 times a week.
So, for the past nine months he knew he was having a baby and failed to inform me of the situation. I found out today a whole week later that the baby was born. Now, I am happy for him because this is a new chapter in his life and i’m happy because kids are truly a blessing and he’s going to make a great dad…I actually want to be the godmother but not just yet (still a bit mad). Although I am happy for him, I couldn’t help but to think…are we not as close as I thought we were. I tell him everything…and I thought he did the same. Apparently not…so my question is should I look at him and our friendship different or chalk it up to him being a guy entering a situation he was in denial about?
People never cease to amaze me!
Damn…Russell out for surgery.
Welp, looks like i’m cheering for the Knicks….*deep Sigh*